Be Still

This is actually a copy of an e-mail to a friend that I sent a couple of months back. . .
I was reminded of it when I was once again freaking out this past week over finances. So I went back to reread it and be reminded of how God continues to bless, lead and more often carry me through situations.

Ok I'm going to ramble for a minute. . . Try not to think I'm too crazy.

I'm having one of those freak out kind of days, worrying about . . . finances, how to handle situations with the kids, money again, getting the house in order, school next year for Isaac, Skye's speech testing results meeting that we have tomorrow, starting our small group, money again, etc. . . Anyway, after getting the kids to bed for nap and working on the dishes I felt like I was just getting more and more worked up about everything instead of letting it go. All of a sudden I heard the words "Be Still and Know that I am God" I glanced around as I could have sworn someone next to me said it, then figured that I am now really losing it and said to myself, yeah right I know that verse, easier said than done, I know God is in control but what about. . . Right then it was as if someone calmly shouted right next to me "BE STILL". Ok, that got my attention more. I looked around again to confirm I was still alone and then figured out that I better figure out a way to be still for a minute, but then got to wondering, how does one do that? What does that really mean? So I sat down at the computer (yeah, I know not a great way to start clearing one's mind and being still) and typed in the verse onto my yahoo search engine. I clicked on the first link that appeared-some Christian site that goes back to the original hebrew to give deeper insight into verses or some such thing. They had couple pages on the verse, but there was just a couple of things that really stood out to me (I've highlighted those words in red)

“Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. (Psalm 46:10)

AS THE CLIMAX of Psalm 46, this verse is not so much about meditation as it is about the mediation of God’s kingdom in the heart of faith. The command to “be still” comes from the Hiphil stem of the verb () rapha (meaning to be weak, to let go, to release), which might better be translated as, “cause yourselves to let go” or “let yourselves become weak” (in poetic contexts, the noun form rephai’im was sometimes used as a synonym for “the place of the dead”). But to what end are we to “be still,” “let go,” “surrender,” and even to “die to ourselves”? In Hebrew grammar, the emphasis of coordinate imperatives (“be still!” and “know!”) is on the second imperative. In other words, we surrender in order to know that God is in control as Ribbono Shel Olam – the Master of the Universe. We “let go” in order to objectively know the saving power of God in our lives. We give up trusting in ourselves and our own designs in order to experience the glory of God’s all-sufficiency (Ex 14:14). OK, I know we've all heard this verse a million times, and nothing said in these paragraphs is that new, but it just really hit me that I'm not allowing God to show His Glory, His Plans, His Love, when I worry and try to handle everything on my own. I claim to want to see what He has in store for me, but then I don't really completely surrender in order to allow Him to do all that He has planned. I say I trust Him, but then I continue to fret. I really do need to "Be Still" to "cause myself to let go" of all these things and truelly trust Him if I want Him to really be able to show Himself to me, and to see His glory So there is my ramblings. Just wanted to share.